I feel so sluggish and unhealthy and huge today. I’m trying to be objective as I know I’m not actually that unhealthy. I mean I’m not small and fit either but I just feel bigger and worse today and I feel so insecure right now. A month ago I had planned a little experiment to see how fit and healthy i could get by November the 15th and well travelling and being unwell stopped that in its tracks. So now I’m here its 5 days away and I don’t feel any different. It started so well and then just didn’t happen and I’m now just extremely disappointed in myself.