I slightly give up with you. I love you but you drive me mad I swear. You’re so smart yet so clueless. We’ve got a short amount of time to spend with each other and I want to make the most of it. I’d jump at the opportunity to spend time with you but sometimes I doubt you feel the same. I go back to college/school tomorrow and that drastically drops the amount of time I’ve got to see you as studying is the priority. You’re already at uni and you’re leaving to go back in a week or so. I also have shifts coming up at work once again reducing the amount of time we have that we could spend together. I feel like I’m the daft one. That I’m too attached. At the same time feel like I’m the one with common sense. I want to see you so I get all the stuff that needs to be done done so I have free time. Whereas you just seem to bumble along not particularly caring. this feels like summer all over again. when I’m not busy you apparently are. yet i could see bits of time that if you got your butt into gear I could have saw you. I can get up at 5am and work an 8 hour shift and then come and see you. Yet you’ve done a shorter shift and have complained about being too tired and too busy to see me. I sometimes feel like I put all the effort in.
It’s rather confusing you can be so lovely and thoughtful and truly so but then you can be so unthinking. I know I can be overly sensitive but yeah. I feel like I’m bothering you by wanting to spend time with you and I hate feeling like that.
Sorry this has become a bit of a rant but it’s just not fun.